I remembered I hadn't posted a set of song lyrics, or pointed out their relevance to my life. So here we go.
From the Inside - Linkin Park
I don't know who to trust
No surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts sift through dust
And the lies
Trying not to break
But I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how
Trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me
I'll take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear
For the last time
I won't trust myself with you
Tension is building inside
Steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts forcing their way
Out of me
I won't trust myself with you
I won't waste myself on you
Waste myself on you
You
There were never lies. Not to her. I don't lie to the people I love. I won't lie to the people I love.
It didn't matter what happened. I would have trusted myself with her. Always.
But it couldn't be.
As upsetting as it is to say, it may never be. It's just a reality I have to face.
We all uncover an unwanted truth, or are forced to face a reality we'd honestly rather not.
When this happens, there's not much we can do about it, except deal with it and try to move on.
Some truths and realities are easier to face than others, but they must be faced.
I only hope that any others that are forced to face some of the more painful realities are not forced to face them alone.
