Since I last posted. I've been doing some self reflection over the past week, looking back on the year. From this date last year, if I may list out everything that's happened:
I was heartbroken
I fell in love with Shannyn
I was heartbroken
I continued loving Shannyn
I was heartbroken
Cut off contact with Shannyn
Rebound
Met and began to like Cassie
Lost contact with the rebound girl
Fell for Cassie
Cassie manipulative and made me fall for what she wanted me to fall for, not her for her
Began contact with Shannyn again
Began disliking Cassie more and more
Still in love with Shannyn
I'd like to take a moment to acknowledge that all my friends think my life is completely fucked up, and if they could avoid being forced to trade lives with any other single person, it would be me. Not someone caught tin the Haiti earthquake, not someone starving to death in Africa, Me. That doesn't really make me feel special.
Ness is coming over tonight for a few hours, but I have no idea what's happening. She just arrived.
Life is very, very, very complicated.
Why can't I just have a normal life, for once? Small family, a desk job, a mortgage. That sorta stuff. God knows I'll get there, but it's going to be a long, difficult, complicated, twisted, windy road.
Fuck it. Maybe I'll get there sooner than I think.
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