I haven't posted here in so long because almost everything in my life just seems... Perfect. For once, life seems perfect. All except one thing. So I'm here to get some things off my chest.
You're my best friend. I know you think it's stupid and I'll just end up getting hurt, but she makes me happy. Right now, I'm happier than I've ever been. Why can't you just let me stay happy? The one thing that makes me s happy may have just gone to Darwin from Adelaide, and the chances of us seeing each other often are incredibly low. Here's the thing... 22 days. 22 days until I see her.
22 days. I've never been more excited for anything in my life. 22 days and I fly up to see her. I get to see her, I get to go to her formal, I get to hold her, kiss her, be with her. I know it might seem like an over statement, but I honestly think in 3 weeks I will be starting the best weekend of my life.
I can't wait. You said you'd be happy for me, and then something happened. What happened? We were fine one minute, and you were ready to support me, but then you turned around and spat it back in my face. I mean... What the hell?
Yes I can be an idiot, and yes, I tend to say things that annoy you or upset you, but you're still my best friend. But rather than supporting me, you pointed out how your old best friend couldn't do it. "And when he really wanted to hold her and kiss her, he couldn't so he cheated on her and it completely destroyed him". That may be true, but I'm not going to do that. Her smile, her laugh, her sneeze. Her squeaks. Everything about her makes me so incredibly happy.
I know you don't think I can do it. Your words: "if an extremely hot girl came up to you and wanted to have sex with you, you wouldn't be able to resist". I could. First off: No "extremely" hot girls are going to come up to me for sex. It's not going to happen. Ever. So you challenged that. "What if I came up to you, drunk and horny?" What would happen? I'd tell you to take care of it yourself. At the time you asked, you had an unnofficial boyfriend. He's now your official boyfriend. I helped make that happen. I helped you be with someone else, because you matter to me. You're my best friend. I watched you cheat on him, Twice. I heard how little you cared, and then you tell me you can't lose him because you love him. Not hearing from him for a day freaks you out. You get terrified. I'm the same with her. I freak out when I don't hear from her for a day.
I'm not going to cheat on her. I'm going to do everything I can to make this work. Because I love her. And I want to make it work. I hope she feels the same.
