So I guess this is it.

Tonight I saw HP6. Brilliant movie. Much better than expected. As much as it cut out, it kept the important bits and changed a lot of things. I was scared because I was told that they cut out too much and it was horrible and "How could Rowling be happy with that movie?". I'll tell you she could be happy with that... Because it was a brilliant movie. Shannyn... Yes I miss her. Yes I want to talk to her. But I had a revelation... She broke my heart. I can't change that. I can't fix it. I can't change her mind. So why should I make myself feel like shit for that? Yes I feel like shit. But she won't take me back. She needs to take care of herself. I hope she can. That said if she ever comes down to Melbourne, which I hope she does, I will welcome her with arms wide open. I need to get past this. It still hurts. But it needs to be done. Adding a random thought. Everyone says "Don't worry.". I'm beginning to think that particular term is dramatically overused. Maybe I wasn't worried. Maybe I was just curious. Any way. As much as it pains me to say this. Shannyn did the right thing. I do hope our paths cross again. I do hope we meet up. I do hope I get a second chance. But it will be a long time before that happens. I have to go. Paintball early tomorrow morning. Not fun, but it's paintball.