My bahaviour towards my best friend as of late has been absolutely deplorable, despicable and disgusting.
Which is why I don't blame her for not wanting to talk to me. Or see me.
I don't know what's been happening this past week or so, but my behaviour towards those close to me has dropped, significantly.
I've spent almost all day weeding out the reasons why that is. I've spent the rest of the time hoping Linh doesn't hate me. She doesn't. But she is furious. And with very good reason.
I wish we could go back to the way we were. Happy, friendly, messing around the way we did. But I don't think we'll ever be that close again. I don't think she'll let us get that close again. I hope she does.
She has good reason not to, of course. She did what she could to make everything work. I don't know why I took it so personally. I know what's wrong with me, thanks to Brian. Now I just need to save myself, and my friends from it. I need to stop it.
I hope she forgives me soon. But I can understand if she doesn't.
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